PUBLIC HUMILIATION

Have you ever tried to be publicly humiliated by someone? Or your reputation, self, dignity, the WHOLE you, been publicly CRITICIZED. In my case, YES… I had.

This particular event in my life happened just months ago. And I think it was the MOMENT IN MY LIFE THAT I CAME ACROSS WITH “HURT”. A REAL HURT THAT was. It’s because this public humiliation is done by my sister. MY LITTLE SISTER.
The relationship that we had is the usual type for a close sister tandem. We get along always or most of the time. But I think some thing’s wrong with our relationship. And it’s not one of those common issues among siblings.. the so-called sibling rivalry is not the dispute here.. rather., we had this situation : SHE’S-THE-BIG-SISTER and I’M-YOUNGER-THAN-HER. She’s more mature than me and more conscious. We had petty fights not until this.

Well, I must admit that I’m the type of person who loves to meddle with someone’s affairs especially if that someone concerns me. I think I really don’t have to go through every detail on how our fight began. To say it straight to the point, we had a FiGHT and SHE PUBLICLY HUMILIATED ME OVER A BLOG! Yeah, I’ve said that she’s more mature than me, but what she did was VERY IMMATURE! Point is, she didn’t have to get sympathized OVER THE NET. I mean, she’s throwing it all on me. A one-sided blog that pinpointing that I’M THE ONE in FAULT ALWAYS. BTW, this blog is not a REVENGE-THING BLOG, if it is, I would have start Blogging months ago. I just have to let this out so I can be totally okay. I mean, few friends of mine know what happened and have heard my side of the story, but I just want to keep this posted on my blog.  BUT ACTUALLY THERES JUST TWO PERSONS WHOM I CAN TALK TO ABOUT THIS SITUATION, AND AMONG THE TWO PERSONS ONLY ONE REALLY KNOWS WHAT HAPPENED AND THE HURT I FELT THEN. (guess, I really have a hard time opening to someone)

Going back, the thing that really PISSED ME was those persons “SYMPATHIZING” her. I mean, WHO ARE THEY TO COMMENT, CRITICIZE on me. THEY DON’T KNOW THE WHOLE STORY, HEARING A ONE-SIDED STORY makes no difference. THEY DON’T KNOW WANT THEY ARE DOING It really pissed me sympathizing over the issue—for what? To tell that they are effin ‘GOOD FRIEND’. If a person is much WISER, they should here both sides before commenting on any issue.

This event didn’t happen only once but twice. So every time it happened, I feel that after my sister posted the blog, my reputation is always at stake. I remember, the day after she posted the blog, I don’t want to go to school that day because I know her friends know about the issue and their eyes would be staring at me as I walk across their rooms. I’m not acting GUILTY—that im really one at fault, both of us ARE AT FAULT. I THINK THAT’S THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I NEEDED TO WEAR A MASK. We’re both in college but unluckily this semester our rooms are always near to each other. So every time I walk over the corridors on the 7th floor of our building, I feel some COLD EYES being laid on me. It really made DAMAGE on me.

I’m just glad that the WHOLE THING is OVER. Now, ME and MY SISTER is currently mending the broken bridge, setting aside our differences is FAR more IMPORTANT. We trying to do the things we’re doing together though I have sweared to myself after the said incident that “THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN”.