CHILDHOOD….. DearLy miss it!

Sometimes, there are days that I miss my childhood so badly. It’s as if that I just want to be a kid again.

NO WORRIES… SO CAREFREE…. and LIFE was so much SIMPLE then. Okay, nostalgia hit me again this time but, you know, there are just some days that when I look up into the sky, on how the sky look like that very day and how the wind blows onto my face---it felt like it belongs to somewhere else. Somewhere in the past, perhaps. And it’s like I’m having a déjà vu.

Well, enough of the drama. Here are the THINGS that I used to do in my childhood years and I miss them.

I MISS….

Ó Riding my bicycle and having a race together with my childhood friends around our subdivision. The best part… to be chased by a DOG and you have to speed up in order not to be bitten by it.

Ó Making the subdivision’s guard house (it’s not yet finished then) our den or hideout.

Ó Playing with my brother and his friends. Of course, the games they played are for boys and honestly, I pictured myself before as one of the boys?? LOL

Ó Star-gazing with my friends at a friend’s rooftop.

Ó Visiting my friends’ houses in the afternoon.

Ó Playing in the rain and catching cold afterwards.

Ó Strolling at the park with childhood buddies. We have a pyramid at our park and that’s where we usually hang out.

Ó Pretending to be someone. I guess the right word is.. PORTRAYING someone! Haha

Ó Playing “larong-pinoy games”!

Ó Sweating so much because of a game.

Ó Riding on the front of a pushcart every time my parents go to the grocery.

Ó Taking a FORCED-siesta. Our nanny always forced us to take a nap on the afternoons.

Ó JUST BEING A KID.

So, those are the things that pop out of my head and I miss it!

Those are just some..

:)

"As i grow old, my realizations about LIFE become deeper,

PROBLEMS get bigger, SITUATIONS become more complicated,

Sometimes, I wish I could go back..

Back to the time when the only man in my life was my dad,

my best friend was my mom..

and any pain could be healed by just a band-aid or lollipop."

the GIRL I KNEW

The Girl I Knew

There’s a certain girl I knew
Whom I fondly call Mimi
A girl who paints the town red
Whenever, wherever.

Being with her,
Laughing with her,
Chatting with her,
Were the first things I would readily do.

She’s the kind,
One would go in to,
Her laughter, her smiles,
You just can’t get enough,
‘Coz with her, what you see is what you get

written by the girl i also know very well, my cousin

What COLORS say ABout YOU

My friend ask me to take this personality test yesterday at this site goldinuniverse.com. And, the Results are AMAzING... AMAzIng because they SPEAK QUITE TRUE About mE. While taking the test, I am not really sure on what i'm doing because I think i didn't quite get the instruction. (silly me!) Though the instruction is Really-really simple... JUST PICK COLORS ON YOUR PREFERENCE... luckily, I did pick colors on how i preferred each of them.

Personality TESTs has a way on SURPRISING me. I guess its with the RESULTS they gave you. :)

Name: jeramae
Date: 3/24/2009
Colorgenics Number: 05726143
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The idea of togetherness, love, warmth, tenderness and mutual understanding fascinates you but you seem to be embarrassed by the thought of allowing this to appear openly. It would appear that you employ a cautious exploratory tactic in the pursuit of this objective, making sure that you are neither irrevocably committed nor found out.

You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavour to get what you are looking for.

It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification?

You feel worn out - you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.

PUBLIC HUMILIATION

Have you ever tried to be publicly humiliated by someone? Or your reputation, self, dignity, the WHOLE you, been publicly CRITICIZED. In my case, YES… I had.

This particular event in my life happened just months ago. And I think it was the MOMENT IN MY LIFE THAT I CAME ACROSS WITH “HURT”. A REAL HURT THAT was. It’s because this public humiliation is done by my sister. MY LITTLE SISTER.
The relationship that we had is the usual type for a close sister tandem. We get along always or most of the time. But I think some thing’s wrong with our relationship. And it’s not one of those common issues among siblings.. the so-called sibling rivalry is not the dispute here.. rather., we had this situation : SHE’S-THE-BIG-SISTER and I’M-YOUNGER-THAN-HER. She’s more mature than me and more conscious. We had petty fights not until this.

Well, I must admit that I’m the type of person who loves to meddle with someone’s affairs especially if that someone concerns me. I think I really don’t have to go through every detail on how our fight began. To say it straight to the point, we had a FiGHT and SHE PUBLICLY HUMILIATED ME OVER A BLOG! Yeah, I’ve said that she’s more mature than me, but what she did was VERY IMMATURE! Point is, she didn’t have to get sympathized OVER THE NET. I mean, she’s throwing it all on me. A one-sided blog that pinpointing that I’M THE ONE in FAULT ALWAYS. BTW, this blog is not a REVENGE-THING BLOG, if it is, I would have start Blogging months ago. I just have to let this out so I can be totally okay. I mean, few friends of mine know what happened and have heard my side of the story, but I just want to keep this posted on my blog.  BUT ACTUALLY THERES JUST TWO PERSONS WHOM I CAN TALK TO ABOUT THIS SITUATION, AND AMONG THE TWO PERSONS ONLY ONE REALLY KNOWS WHAT HAPPENED AND THE HURT I FELT THEN. (guess, I really have a hard time opening to someone)

Going back, the thing that really PISSED ME was those persons “SYMPATHIZING” her. I mean, WHO ARE THEY TO COMMENT, CRITICIZE on me. THEY DON’T KNOW THE WHOLE STORY, HEARING A ONE-SIDED STORY makes no difference. THEY DON’T KNOW WANT THEY ARE DOING It really pissed me sympathizing over the issue—for what? To tell that they are effin ‘GOOD FRIEND’. If a person is much WISER, they should here both sides before commenting on any issue.

This event didn’t happen only once but twice. So every time it happened, I feel that after my sister posted the blog, my reputation is always at stake. I remember, the day after she posted the blog, I don’t want to go to school that day because I know her friends know about the issue and their eyes would be staring at me as I walk across their rooms. I’m not acting GUILTY—that im really one at fault, both of us ARE AT FAULT. I THINK THAT’S THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I NEEDED TO WEAR A MASK. We’re both in college but unluckily this semester our rooms are always near to each other. So every time I walk over the corridors on the 7th floor of our building, I feel some COLD EYES being laid on me. It really made DAMAGE on me.

I’m just glad that the WHOLE THING is OVER. Now, ME and MY SISTER is currently mending the broken bridge, setting aside our differences is FAR more IMPORTANT. We trying to do the things we’re doing together though I have sweared to myself after the said incident that “THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN”.

What CAn I say...

Okay… I CANT BELIEVE I’M WRITING!! I MEAN BLOGGING!! Haha

I can’t just get hold of the fact that I’m effin BLOGGING (finally). Well, I guess I just needed someone to CONVINCE ME and thanks to my friend for doing so… You see, I always thought of BLOGGING, I mean the DRIVE TO BLOG SOMETHING is always there and THERE ARE TIMES THAT I REALLY WANNA WRITE SOMETHING but I couldn’t just do it then because I am NOT YET Prepared that my ideas be heard out by anybody and I just couldn’t find the motivation I think or I’M JUST BEING TOO LAZY to do it.

Now I GUESS it’s the time. I really owe it to my friend for convincing me, motivating, and believing that I have the capacity to be a blogger (well, anyone can be right?). So, should I say to myself WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF BLOGGERS? I guess so.